Tycoon Women Moments: My moment of action

Turning over the next card and its moment number 3

Moment of action.

Monumental decisions and actions taken as a consequence

My moment of action relates to the decision I made to leave my first long-term relationship with my daughter's father. At the time I was still deeply in love with him and really wanted to be with him, but for some reason he was unable to meet my needs in terms of where I saw my life going.

I had always been highly ambitious coming from a very academic orientated family of top achievers. And although I had got the college degree and was working as a senior planning officer this was where I saw my life in five years time. My plan of action would take me to bigger and better things.

However my partner was very content to remain exactly where he was and I could see that his lack of ambition and drive was slowly destroying me. Even though we had one child together and another one on the way; technically we did live together. It was my flat and he came and went like a migrant worker. Staying with us if things were good and retreating to his second home with his mother when things got tough.

I really felt like a single-parent struggled alone emotionally and financially. I can remember one day walking home pushing my daughter, I was about six months pregnant and all I could think of was that I was doomed. I had visions of me living in a council flat with lots of children for the rest of my life.

It wasn't until sometime later that I realised that the person that was keeping me imprisoned in this life was none other than me. I was in this situation was because I was keeping myself there.

Leaving any relationship is difficult enough however I found it even more difficult because as I said at the time I still deeply loved my partner. However I realise he was like a drug; loving him was like being addicted to crack cocaine. The thing I loved was killing me and so like an addict I needed to give it up before it totally destroyed me.

And that is what I did. The song that reminds me of this decision is L J REYNOLDS - KEY TO THE WORLD because it was a song we often slow danced to while out clubbing. It's a song offering promise based on a lack of reality.

Everyone actually has the keys to the world, the power within themselves to achieve anything they want; unfortunately my partner definitely didn't have the keys to the world. I'm sure if he had he would have given me everything; unfortunately he didn't seem to want to try looking for them.

I wasn’t able to find this track for the radio broadcast so I played Thank You by Jamelia because the lines of the chorus “you broke my world made me strong thank you, messed up my world made me strong thank you” which with hindsight sums up how I feel about this part of my life now. However, the wonders of YouTube mean that I can have both in my blog. Enjoy.

What is your moment of action and what song would you use to represent it? Please share your thoughts and experiences so others can benefit. I look forward to reading about them.