I used to be a feminist but I’m alright now!

The older I have got the more stereotypical feminine I have wanted to look.  Perhaps there is an inverse relationship between the amount of female hormones you produce and the need to look feminine.  Maybe the lower the level of hormones, the less feminine you feel and hence the need to compensate with your appearance.  I'm not sure whether or not there is a scientific basis for this; however I've definitely noticed this change in my outlook as I approached the menopausal years.

 

Anyway, the two things for me which define my femininity are hair and boobs, neither of which, I ever really had in large proportions.

I lost most of my hair several years ago when it started falling out in clumps.  Numerous trips to specialist could find no underlying cause.  As it continued to fall out (I wore my hair in dreadlocks at the time) I became more and more distressed and was eventually forced to cut it all off in order not to look like an old balding man with a comb over that fooled no one.  Luckily for me, shaved heads on women were in at the time.  Initially I loved my shaved head look.  It was very Amazonian and sexy.

The amount of approaches I got from middle aged, slightly overweight, rich white guys, who obviously thought that getting with me was a way to live out both their dominatrix and the Lord of the jungle fantasies simultaneously, was unbelievable.  Shame my morals (and my husband) prevented me from cashing in on all this attention – I jest!

Anyway as the years went by and the hormones continue to drop, I felt a growing need to have hair.  As mine had already long since given up any desire to be seen above the skin level of my scalp, I resorted to wearing wigs.  At first I change my hair with my outfits.  At one time I had in my possession more than 25 wigs, in various colours, length and styles.  Colleagues often remarked that they never knew what I was going to look like from one day to the next.  However, as my need to look more feminine grew, I began to opt for more natural looking hair and a constant style.  I've had my current hairstyle for almost 2 years now (like real hair).

Turning to the boobs;  10 years ago, if someone had asked me my opinions on boob jobs, I would have stood firmly in the camp that saw such adaptations to the feminine form as nothing more than pandering to the sexualisation of the female glands, whose primary purpose is to sustain the life of a newborn.

Now, with my reducing hormone levels, I'm seriously contemplating giving myself a DD cup as my 50th birthday present to me!  This is despite the fact that I hate the thought of surgery and you have to replace them every 10 years (they don't tell you that in the adverts). I’ve reasoned, that if I did it now, 10 years would make me 60 and either I won't care anymore or  if I did, I’d only have to replace them once, as I definitely won't care by the time I’m 70, whatever my hormone levels are!

Sorry my feminist sisters, it's the hormones.  I do think boobs give one a better shape in clothes because they are all designed that way and whilst I could continue to work with the padding, I thought that it would be nice to have one part of my feminine bits that I didn't have to take off at night!

What parts of your body would you change if you could?  What lengths are you prepared to go to in order to look the way you want? Please share your thoughts and opinions.